Home | Join! | Help | Browse | Forums | NuWorld | NWF | PoPo   
Whos that gurrrllll?


buckeyebeautydiva
Age. 43
Gender. Female
Ethnicity. mixed up american gypsy girl
Location Salem, OH
School. Other
» More info.
SOMEONE TALK TO ME!!!
Days Of the Week


March 2024

  S  M  T  W  T  F  S
                 1  2
  3  4  5  6  7  8  9
 10 11 12 13 14 15 16
 17 18 19 20 21 22 23
 24 25 26 27 28 29 30
 31
Does She have friends???
Featured Artwork
Artist:Dorian Cleavanger

OBSESSION

FALLEN

ANGEL

LIGHT

CATHEDRAL
OMG She's a BLINKIE freak!












My Sim-U-lator
Hunger

Comfort

Hygiene

Energy

Fun

Social

Bladder

Room

Love

Reach for the lasers with Antic's Sims-ulator!
Number of people I've bored!
NEW DAY
313th day of 2004
We're back here again. Only for a while. This will be the honest page. So get used to it. I'm sick of being treated like a child... So you will have to read here from now on to get the truth.

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

Walk Away.
279th day of 2004
watching: veronica mars in 30 minutes
listening to: my daughter singing
mood: irritated.
I feel like screaming. Misha I know that it was you that imed me. So just come clean. Yes it was you that left Toby that letter 18 months ago. You that is lost and confused. I don't have anything against you. Living in a bit of annoyance. Your not a bad person. A tad bit strange but still. We are alot alike you and I. The difference here being. He is with me. Please stay out of my life. Please leave me alone.

crazyazzcrackerbiotch (4:10:34 PM): i am sending this one last im to you because i think you mistook everything i said earlier today. i did not send you those messages to fuck with you, i sent them because i needed a question answered, and i got that answer. i dont want TOBY, i already had toby. i dont want to live with him, i dont want to talk to him, i dont want to see him, and i dont want to fuck him. if you want to know exactly what i am talking about, although i advise against it, then i will tell you. but dont post my messages like i am doing this to be mean or vindictive. i DID care about him, but caring and being some psycho are totally different things. yes i was in the general knowledge that you two were together last year, but if that doesnt stop him why should it stop me?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch (4:11:01 PM): i dont want to be the psycho as u put it, so i will not send any more messages about this, all im saying is beware of where you put your trust so blindly


I don't care if you have ever been with him or where you were with him. You can say that you were, I could care less. Please just go away.

Comment! (1) | Recommend!

POSITIVE
279th day of 2004
I was talking to Toby on the phone right after that conversation, the line beeped. All I could think is OH FUCK it's this chick who's iming me... It' wasn't!!!! It was NEIL!!! OMG I'm so happy. Neil is one of Toby's 3 best friends, he's also the one that I've spent the most time with hell I baked this dude a spade birthday cake last year. *rotlfmao* The kids love their Uncle Neilie. We haven't talked since I backed his wifey up against the counter the day they came down so Tiny could pierce her tounge. I just don't like her. I used to hell I used to love her as much as I love neil but she's shown herself to be a C*nt. Anyway he's a truck driver now and we miss him haven't seen him since february. I'm so happy that we heard from him! Maybe we'll get to see him soon!!! Toby's talking to him currently. I'm sure he's sooooo happy. Well thats all for now!

Comment! (0) | Recommend!

Bizzarre!
279th day of 2004
mood: confused, slightly fucked off, in need of advice
listening to: Avril
watching: nothing.
Ok. So I know that Toby was talking to ALOT of females before he met me. I know some of these females were in love and some in his opinion obsessed with him. I've just had an extended conversation with one of them. The whole conversation was clouded with "mystery" I really don't know who they are/were or if I really care. I mean Toby and I have been together 18 months. I've lived with him for 16 months. We're planning our engagement and our eventual marriage. I know that he won't cheat on me. he's had to many bad experiences in his past. But why did this person im me? To attempt to still hate me? And why hate me? I didn't do anything to anyone. I just met toby and we ended up liking eachother. Same priorities. I think that I may start PW protecting my posts. Because the opening part of the conversation was about the fact that this person read my journal. Here is the conversation... You decide. Leave an opinion. Tell me what you think.

crazyazzcrackerbiotch: do you yahoo?
Maggie: who the hell?
Maggie: dude do I know you?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: no
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: was just being funny
Maggie: ahhh where in ohio?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: ne corner
Maggie: amusing name tho
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: thanks
Maggie: that helps thats where I am too
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i was wondering though, wouldnt
a poptart with frosting be better?
Maggie: but of course.
Maggie:
Maggie: it's actually a pregnancy joke.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: ok, im lost
Maggie: the nickname is frostless_poptart because when
I was pregnant with my daughter I had a breakdown
because my poptart had no frosting.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: wow
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: ok
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: mine was BBQ sauce
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: and blueberry, but not together
Maggie: lol
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: just wanted to say hi cause i
read your online journal thingy and u seem alot like
me
Maggie:
Maggie: Cool.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: which i dont know if thats a
good thing for me, or a good thing for u...or maybe
neither
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but it all makes sense now
Maggie: lol truely... I always thought I was an
original.
Maggie: ok care to explain lol cos now I'm all
confused
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: sadly, i cannot
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but again, u seem really normal
Maggie: lol It's an attempt. What is normal after all.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: as long as you make yourself
happy without hurting anyone else (unless they deserve
it) thats normal i think
Maggie: lol
Maggie: I guess.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: isnt it weird how you can feel
like you know somene when you dont at all?
Maggie: umm yeh
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: yea i know, these are my
morning rants
Maggie: Any chance of insight into you since youve
read my profile and journal
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: well, what did you want to
know?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: sadly, im an open book
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i cant keep anything to myself
Maggie: lol who are you?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: (thats what the teachers all
said anyway)
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: ahh, did you want a name ?
Maggie: yes please
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: let me think of one because i
cant give out my real one
Maggie: ok. enough of the bs. I'm not really
entertained with online bs and games.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch:
Maggie: My guess you would be Julie, or Angie.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: well, i recognize the julie
name
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but not angie
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: so whos she? another ex?
Maggie: I'm very suspicious of people.
Maggie: Since I've moved to ohio I've dealt with gobs
of people IMing me, attempting to make me paranoid cos
problems in my relationship and other things.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but, im not julie
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i was gonna say kathy
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: no, that was not my plan at all
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i just wanted to see how...you
were
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i didnt mean anything bad by
iming u
Maggie: I'm highly confused,
Maggie: Do you serve any purpose by iming me?
Maggie: Do you know my fiancee?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: only my own purposes
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i had a decision to make
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: and this helped
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: im sorry if i am confusing or
annoying
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: again, it was not my intention
at all
Maggie: Do you plan on answering the final question?
Maggie: Do you know my finacee
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: ok, no
Maggie: Do you know anyone who knows me?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: not anymore
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: no
Maggie: Did you know someone who knew me?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: a long long time ago in a
galaxy far away
Maggie: past relationship perhaps?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: with?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: again, its not a big deal
Maggie: Do you know one of my ex-s?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i just wanted to see if u were
nice or not
Maggie: I'm just curious this conversation is
bizzarre?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: im sorry
Maggie: Typically I am.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i could kind of tell that from
the journal
Maggie: Sometimes I'm not.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: which made my ethical dilemma
weird considering i didnt know u at all
Maggie: Just like the rest of the world.
Maggie: You remind me of someone who would know
Matthew.
Maggie: Do you?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i know a matt
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but prob not the same one you
do
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i know this is rather odd
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but i do have a respect for you
now that i didnt have before
Maggie: down right bloody confusing
Maggie: ok well. if you ever decide to share insight
into yourself with me contact me. I'd love to know who
you actually are.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i just dont want to cause
problems
Maggie: how would you cause problems/?
Maggie: fo who?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i used to hate you
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: and i didnt even know you
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: and i swear to god, im not
playing games
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but fair enough
Maggie: why did you hare me?
Maggie: hate me
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: hmm, how to explain this one
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: well, i thought i had something
that i never really had
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: because it would seem that half
of ohio had that as well
Maggie: I assume perhaps it was an internet romance
with someone?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: the first day maybe
Maggie: Are you Michelle?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: name doesnt start with an m
Maggie: but did you used to chat with Toby?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: yes
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: again a long long time ago
Maggie: Before he met me.
Maggie: Did you chat with Tim also?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: yes and no
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: hes a funny mo
Maggie: lol to say the least.
Maggie: Dimples?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: do i have em?
Maggie: lol no was that in your s/n?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: oh, lol
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: sorry, no
Maggie: lol ok...
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: ok, ok
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i cant do this anymore
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: im sorry if i am weird
Maggie: I wouldn't hate you. I wouldn't hold anything
against you. I'd just love to know who you are.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i just needed to talk to the
girl who i disliked so much
Maggie: And you disliked me because of Toby?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: because i figured i had you
judged all wrong
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: and i did
Maggie: because of my relationship with him?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: because of his affection for
you
Maggie: oh.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: it would seem you got that all
the time, and i only got it when i saw him
crazyazzcrackerbiotch:
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: sorry ive been reliving my past
again
Maggie: Are you the woman that said something to him
in the walmart parking lot ?
Maggie: lol
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: its not that im bitter, i just
wanted to answer some questions for myself
Maggie: Before I moved here.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: damn, if i tell u where i saw
him, then you would know who i was
Maggie: lol I honestly don't care who you are. I
promise.
Maggie: Your not going to cause anyone any problems.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: some questions were put to me
by people in my past, and it kind of made me reexamine
things
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: and for me, having an ethical
dilemma is new
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: not that im horrible mind u
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but, i usually dont let things
get to me like this has
Maggie: neither am I people just assume I am
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: and then here i am thinking
about you, when i havent for sooo long
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but not like i used to
(remember the dislike ) yea i dont feel that
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: so i guess thats a good thing
Maggie: If it's any consolation, I met Toby on April
5th 2003, we chatted, for 2 months and then I moved
here. Before he met me he had talked to a couple
women that meant alot to him. Then there was also one
ex.
Maggie: I thought she and I had a chance at a
friendship but I dunnoo she rubbed me wrong.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: hun, i know all of that
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: when u met him, when u moved
in..i even remember thinking that you and julie were
not going to get along...just because of her hold she
wanted on him
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but that was just my opinion
Maggie: lol that hold was quickly broken. I actually
like Julie usually.
Maggie: I don't like her husband.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: ahh, cliff i think?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: thats my dads name, thats why i
remember it
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: or holy crap, is that someone
elses name? lol
Maggie: have we ever met face to face
Maggie: ?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: no
Maggie: are you the person that has sent me random
im's?
Maggie: from random names
Maggie: about julie and her hold on him?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: wow, no
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: this is the first time ive sent
u a message
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i didnt want to get anyone in
trouble before
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: (because of my annoyance at how
things went down..i didnt trust myself)
Maggie: did he just stop talking to you all together
or something?
Maggie: your name isn't Jade Marie is it?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: wow, but no, did he see all
these women at the same time?
Maggie: lol no.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: once you moved in, basically
yes
Maggie: Well I want to apologize to you.
Maggie: I never wanted to end friendships.
Maggie: I never wanted to cause anyone harm.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: im glad for knowing him
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i wont deny that
Maggie: He's truely a good man.
Maggie: Good heart.
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: but if i could go back, i would
make it totally different
Maggie: did you give him a letter?
Maggie: telling him you loved him?
Maggie: but wishing us luck?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: wow, i dont know
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: i may have...hmm, id have to
think about that
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: besides, i was the dumb ass who
kept talking to him, even after i knew about you and
all
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: my stupid mistake
Maggie: Did you two ever have sex?
crazyazzcrackerbiotch: yes

Comment! (5) | Recommend!

Step One...
277th day of 2004
I've taken the first step. I've decided that it is time for me to make the changes to make me feel better. Step one was cutting off my hair. Ok so it's not chopped off persay, it's Layered. I had about a foot taken off the front. Yeah 12 inches of hair wacked off. But it feels better. And I feel better. Next step is going to be dieting. I want to lose 100 lbs. I'm going to do it properly. I need to decide on a plan of action such as excercise. But this time next year I want to be 100 lbs lighter. I've got alot of stuff to change about myself but I'm going to do it. I know with the people that I love to support me I will be able to do it.and I'm sure someone out there will encourage me. So here is too my future! *fingers crossed*

Comment! (2) | Recommend!

Blah
Friday. 10.1.04 9:47 pm
"A relationship is like a train. If one passes, then the next one will come. I'm sure and if you get off the train, you'll realize that everything is the same."

Comment! (3) | Recommend!

Page: 1 2 3 4 5 6
buckeyebeautydiva's Weblog Site • NuTang.com

NuTang is the first web site to implement PPGY Technology. This page was generated in 0.036seconds.

  Send to a friend on AIM | Set as Homepage | Bookmark Home | NuTang Collage | Terms of Service & Privacy Policy | Link to Us | Monthly Top 10s
All content © Copyright 2003-2047 NuTang.com and respective members. Contact us at NuTang[AT]gmail.com.